The following comment isn't an exact quote and is from memory only. I often admire people who try to find out the truth even if it means they might receive backlash for it.
However, what does that say about us as a society if we are willing to erase the truth for fear of litigation?
I've recently found out that I assumed some things falsely about people because of how the association processing centers in my brain works when I allow myself to get into a state of anxiety.
But how will I ever found out exactly what happened if evidence gets erased by someone who makes more money then I do? Furthermore, how do I know for a fact that someone who erased things wasn't involved?
To cover up one's actions, even if someone is not guilty, is to in some ways support a predator.
I find it sad that we live in a world where someone who works at Google Headquarters would simply click an erase button just because they have the power to. I find it sad that Apple wouldn't make sure its Iphones were more secure before placing them on the market. I am sickened by the fact that someone who works for Nasa might be involved with violating women on the internet and avoid prosecution just because of his status in life.
Is this what this world is coming to? Have we become so disconnected, as a society, that the only means of getting close to people anymore is through a text message or a search engine bar?
I've learned a lot since I started blogging in 2006, and I've also changed a lot. In some ways the change was for the better, and in some ways it brought out the worst in me.
I realize ultimately I can only control and take responsibility for my own actions.
So I had a conversation with someone today which helped me to bring about some closure in my life.
Perhaps that is all I was really looking for so I could finally move on.
Perhaps that is really what everyone is looking for. As irony would have it though, the closure didn't come in the form of an email.
It came in the form of a telephone conversation.
So here I am blogging today with the realization that I still do not know the truth, but understanding that I have just taken the first step in learning how to know.
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Does this mean your questions have been answered and futile search for the unanswerable ones is over?
I really hope you now have closure, so you can move on from this horrific ordeal for you.
The questions perhaps will never be over. Moving on doesn't happen overnight.
I wish it did. It doesn't.
Shelly - glad to see things have been healing for you lately, it has been for me too.
I'm done, I found out who did what and why long ago, but I need to use the net and have the right to and every time I do...bam...but for the moment, things are quiet.
This is the first calm, hopeful post I've seen in a while, good to see it.
And yes, unfortunately, the justice system in America is the best that money can buy.
And Shelly, it wasn't anything negative that drew them to you...
Just like schoolyard bullies, if don't kiss bully ass, they target YOU, at least briefly...that's what happened with Kevin as well, they can't stand it.
You stood up for me long ago and then they went after YOU...that's it...which is a GOOD thing.
Many people will deny knowing them/try to kiss ass just to stay afloat and be left alone...because if you DO stand up, down you'll go.
As I said, someone tried to tell me about them and I thought she was nuts, especially when she told me WHO...until it happened to me.
They are deluded enough to consider themselves "internet hit men" that one can call on to get rid of you, but those asking never provide proof...not to mention that anyone resorting to such means OVER BLOG ATTENTION is pretty fucked up themselves.
My real life is no party, but how much do THEIR lives suck that they need that sort of attention/powerful feeling so desperately that ? But as I said long ago, let's focus on the angels in the room, not the assholes, yes?
Let's move on...together...after Carly's post.:)
MOving on DOES happen overnight, Shelly s it's a conscious decision to do so. It's the healing which takes the longest,with the process delayed until the decision to move on has been made.
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